Its so certain of coming...yet I pray for immortality and youth and an impossible toghetherness of a lifetime
Its so true that your loved ones will leave you one day, no matter how hard you hold on to them, however, when the reality of their leaving really hits your face; its like a bolt from the blue...no I dont say I am mentally strong to take it.. or that I am capable to handle it enough...or that I shall be strong and not miss you...I'll try and fail like every other normal human being and it is only that I chose to shed my tears at the dark sky ....
no...I know that you will no more be there when I shall wait alone on a dark cold night for the vehicle to carry me home..nor will you ever say I must carry extra cash....or that you shall encourage me for an ice-cream on a freezing winter night...or settle a fallen bang...or admire my new dress..nor will you be there when I shall try reaching places....I shall no more have to run errands for you..or care for your medicine...or even get to see your smiling face as I return from work or anxiety at my trouble...the usual chatter, songs we sang and banter....Nor shall you ever be able to teach me how to dance...or your reading the morning paper...and me just waiting for you to be done with its reading...
The time I was losing you I could not even come to terms with it and when I did I just could not realize you were gone..and as you lay on your last journey so calm..I prayed you find a better home...
I know you can't read what I have written..but I think it is time to make peace with the fact that you will never be there around in person.
